Maybe its just cause I am not feeling great that I feel so mopey, but right now I feel like a bystander at this moment and not a member of the team. Its not because I dont feel like I am part of the team with my COMPANY X, its because I am having to break through and prove myself worthy in the luxury field as a makeup artist. I have to put out a lot of money before I start making money just like an new restaurant and I am just afraid to fail currently. Its just gonna take time I know this. Its gonna pass I know I just need to get past the mopies. I am just so damn impatient I am expecting everything to happen like BAM now. I must remember the following :
When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.
I havent even wanted to eat today until right now and there is nothing more than I want than a sweet onion terriyaki from subway. oh well..
I have to get to bed I am super tired and I have to work tomorrow morning.