and I mean that in all seriousness I put a huge front up alot of times about things not bothering me but to be honest it does ( except cattyness that only annoys me and I tend to show that). I was talking to my Nads who insist I need to utilize my friends when things are down for me emotionally. I hate doing that. When I go low, I go LOW, and little things bother me. really bad. I am in total refusal to be this overly emo blogger and I can not be co dependent on my friends to pull me out. Name nmes oh how I wish I could name names HOWEVER my parents and inlaws occassionally read this and I perfer not to offend.