There are twenty days left until we board the plane and head out to NYC/DC/PHIL. I want this adventure more than air right now, shit more than cake right now. I want to breathe in a new smell. I want to go to Leob Boathouse, Rockafeller Center, the Washington Monument ect ect ect. I feel itchy I am so anxious for the next twenty days to pass.
I feel like I am stuck in this big bowl of suck. I am probably coming off super dramatic but today I blew up at the hubs over dishes and a video game, I cried tears that were not even justified for dishes and a video game it just felt like my entire world fell apart. I cant even tell myself why I cried so hard today for so long. I don't know what is missing right now that is causing such a huge void in my heart that just has me doubled over inside. Everything even my weekly status review at work has me wanted to cry, and the worst part of all I got praise for it. I was told I was doing a good job, and I still felt like the world stomped on me. Then this stupid stomach bug has me doubled over physically. Can caffeine withdraw do this to me? I haven't been drinking soda, and I had a strong addiction to caffeine and tea doesn't have the same amount of caffeine in it than tea does. Can I be going through a substance withdrawal?